Seconds.

I see the seconds 

Coming up through the pages.

I'm not as lucky. 

Struggling with one, 

We can't even get to first

I simply don't know. 

How will we get there?

We try and we try and try. 

What if it's a fail? 

This first, to start with,

Maybe it's not meant for me 

So what can I do? 

How can I feel right

about this life meant for me -

Minus just the one. 

It feels like most have 

One, even two. None for us. 

An empty hollow. 

The second feels like a slap, when I can't even get to a first.