I see the seconds
Coming up through the pages.
I'm not as lucky.
Struggling with one,
We can't even get to first
I simply don't know.
How will we get there?
We try and we try and try.
What if it's a fail?
This first, to start with,
Maybe it's not meant for me
So what can I do?
How can I feel right
about this life meant for me -
Minus just the one.
It feels like most have
One, even two. None for us.
An empty hollow.
The second feels like a slap, when I can't even get to a first.